Initiated by Resistance: A 12-Card Reading on Liberation, Power, and My Role as a Healer

I woke up this morning with the distinct weight of something bigger than me pressing on my chest—not in fear, but in knowing. The knowing that what I’m building with The Zero Point Eclectic and Quantum Fusion Fellowship of Compassion isn’t just a set of ideas, or even a healing platform—it’s a frequency disruptor.

This is sacred work.

And sacred work calls up shadows—mine, the world's, and everything in between.

Before my feet even hit the floor, I knew I needed to pull cards—not to get answers, but to witness the energy moving through me. So I did what I rarely do: I pulled 12 cards from 6 different decks, allowing each layer to speak into this moment.

What unfolded was a soul-mapping of the resistance I feel, the liberation I’m embodying, and the cosmic clarity of my next becoming.

🩵 Deck 1 – Carolyn Myss Archetypes

Card: The Healer

Of course. Of course this would be the first card.

This archetype lives in my bones. It always has. But this reading reminded me that to truly walk as The Healer means to face the resistance that arises when you offer real liberation. Because true healing doesn’t cater to comfort. It calls people back to themselves—and not everyone is ready for that.

I’m not here to fix. I’m here to hold the frequency of what wholeness can look like.

And that is deeply threatening to systems—internal and external—that rely on fragmentation to maintain control.

🌊 Deck 2 – Power of Surrender by Judith Orloff, M.D.

Card: Surrender to Effortlessness

This one hit my nervous system like a balm. It whispered: “You do not need to force what you already are.”

I am not here to hustle liberation into existence.

I'm here to become the living prayer of it. The more I embody it, the more it ripples. That’s the kind of spiritual leadership this mission requires.

🕊️ Deck 3 – Soul Coaching by Denise Linn

Card: Essence

This card brought me home to center. A reminder that amidst strategy, planning, outreach, and offerings—what matters most is essence.

Mine.

Yours.

Ours.

The world is aching for leaders who don’t perform healing—but become it. Who live their essence out loud without apology. This is my true north.

🌌 Deck 4 – Cosmic Magic Oracle by Valerie Tejeda

Cards: Water (Feel) • Scorpio (Transformation) • Chiron (Healing)

This trio cracked me open. They revealed the emotional alchemy of what I’m walking through.

• Water reminded me to feel it all. Grief. Rage. Joy. Fear. These aren’t obstacles—they’re oracles.

• Scorpio spoke of transformation through death and rebirth. I am not who I was even a month ago—and the dying is part of the living.

• Chiron, the Wounded Healer, told me that my own wounds are the access point to my medicine. But only if I stop running from them.

This is the alchemy behind the mission.

This is what Zero Point actually means.

🕯️ Deck 5 – Work Your Light by Rebecca Campbell

Cards: Align Your Life • Council of Light • Play

These three brought forward an important recalibration:

• Align Your Life: I can’t hold this work if I’m out of resonance. Any trace of self-abandonment will short-circuit the signal. It's time to clean house—energetically, emotionally, spiritually.

• Council of Light: I am not doing this alone. I may be on the frontlines, but I’m flanked by ancestors, guides, and a larger Divine mission that has been in motion long before I incarnated.

• Play: Yes, even now. Especially now. Play is how my nervous system regulates and how my soul remembers joy. This path may be sacred—but it should also be alive.

🌒 Deck 6 – Guardian of the Night Tarot by MJ Cullinane

Cards: Sun (Reversed) • Temperance • Queen of Pentacles

This was the grounding layer—the earth beneath all the ether:

• Sun Reversed: There may be periods of doubt, dimming, or fatigue. That doesn’t mean I’ve lost my light—it means I’m being asked to redefine it outside of performance.

• Temperance: Integration is the real work. Bridging spirit and matter. Root and crown. Holding nuance without collapsing into extremes.

• Queen of Pentacles: I can—and must—create something that nurtures my body, home, and future. This Queen reminds me that true liberation also includes sustainability.

🧬 Final Reflection:

This spread wasn’t just a reading.

It was an initiation.

It showed me that the resistance I feel—internally and externally—isn’t here to stop me.

It’s here to refine me.

To make sure I’m not carrying distortion into the sacred work of remembrance. To help me walk this path not as a savior or a martyr—but as a fully embodied human who has chosen to liberate herself again and again, even when the world would rather I stayed small, silent, or sick.

Because here’s the raw truth:

Unhealed people are easier to control. And I am not here to be easy.

I’m here to remember.

To disrupt.

To love.

To liberate.

And if this path asks everything of me—so be it.

Because I remember why I came.

—In devotion and defiance,

Gin Bishop

Founder of Kavi Apoha • Creator of The Zero Point Eclectic • Soul Doula of QFFC